If you have talked to me for an extended amount of time then you most likely have heard the story about the time I opened for Tracy Morgan for 6 shows at The Orlando Improv... It's one of those "Claim to Fame" type stories...

It was also the height of my brief stint in Stand Up Comedy...

Stand Up is HARD... and that's an understatement... It's scary... and awesome... and so much fun when it's going even remotely well... but the fear of it going bad... and then the punch in the gut when it actually does go bad is impossible to explain... and even more impossible to understand if you have never done it.

I had the luxury and curse or doing well my first few times on stage... and because I work on the radio... I had an angle to work some solid shows... Tracy Morgan (in case you missed it above...) Paul Mooney, Bruce Bruce... I met some really good people too... a few I am still friends with... But something happened... and I'm not sure exactly why... but I just developed this fear to go back out on stage and tell jokes...

I did have a really bad show... I mean... BOMB-CITY... part of it was the venue... part of it was the crowd... I agreed to do it last minute... but most of it was on me... I didn't go up there and give it 100%... I didn't even plan a set... or work on it... and that was arrogant on my part... That night hurt... for a long time... I took it super personal... that scared me away from Stand Up for awhile... 

After a little bit of time, I started writing again... started working on some bit ideas... and eventually got back on the horse... I did a Valentine's Day show with one of those friends I met in the beginning... Jersey... if you have been to the Improv you have probably seen him... he is the definition of a Hustler... the dude works!!! Not to mention he is a funny dude... we put together the Valentine's Show... sold it out... and by all accounts it went really well...

Things happen in life... and I had a pretty big storm hit me not long after that... I'm not saying that's what kept me from the stage... but it changed me... On the one hand it gave me the mindset that nothing could ever be worse than what I had just dealt with... on the other, for some reason I started letting other people and their opinions... and their bullsh*t (that's a scientific term)... creep in and control me... and I don't know if that makes sense... or if people can understand it... but it's not fun... and it's hard to snap out of... In fact, I have not fully been able to shake it... which is where this is all going...

I have decided that I have to get up to the plate and start swinging at pitches again... I have to make people see in me what I see in me... Deserve it or not... nobody is going to give me anything... in fact, they are probably going to try to take it away... So now I am standing up... Literally...

I was telling Rae that one of the first things I want to do is get on stage again... so I reached out to my old friend Jersey and said "Hey man... it's been a minute... but I wanna get back on stage... no rush... just let me know when you have a spot and I will be there..." I was thinking maybe next year some time... He hit me back a few minutes later... and BAM! I am on his show in a few weeks... November 30th... Orlando Improv... The Return of Brian Grimes (cue the big movie score sound effect)... I will be the MC that night.... Jersey will headline... and it will be a great time... I hope you guys can come out...

The point of this was to celebrate the fact that I am going to get back on stage... but the real point is that you have to take life and make it yours... don't let life events... or other people... or anything get in the way of that... And it's easier said (and typed) than done... and it's not like I have accomplished it... but I will from this point forward, work at it everyday!